Call On Me

Call On Me lyrics
Well, baby, when times are bad,
Now call on me, darling, and I’ll come to you.
When you’re in trouble and feel so sad,
Well, call on me, darling, come on call on me, and I’ll help you.
Yeah!

A man and a woman have each other, baby,
To find their way in this world.
I need you, darling, like the fish needs the sea,
Don’t take your sweet, your sweet love from me.

Baby, when you’re down and feel so blue,
Well, no, you won’t drown, darling, I’ll be there too.
You’re not alone, I’m there too,
Whatever your troubles, honey, I don’t care.

A man and a woman have each other, baby,
To find their way in this world.
I need you, darling, like the fish needs the sea,
Don’t take your sweet, sweet love from me!

Please! So baby, when times are bad,
Call on me, darling, just call on me.

Saturday #3's

On your journal or mine write 3 words that describes whats going on or how you feel.
My3 words are...........
Bills are coming.

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Can You Feel The Love?

Let me not to the marriage of true
minds.
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration
finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never
shaken;
It is the star to every wand'ring
bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his
height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy
lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass
come;
Love alters not with his brief hours
and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of
doom:

If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Sonnet 116 William Shakespeare

From time to time I have joked with
you all about how my Debbie would
have quick come backs on Can you
feel the love,I guess you now
know that Can You Feel The Love will
be replace with love poems of my Love
for her or our love together.
Please friends bare with me for I'm
trying my best not to be depressed
and will be tryingto make my journal
fun once more.

And as always,thanks for listening!

Not Every Ass Is The Same

regular ass
(_!_)

fat ass
(__!__)

tight ass
(!)

flat ass
(_._)

bubble ass
(_^_)

sore ass
(_*_)

lop-sided ass
(_!__)

swishy ass
{_!_}

surprised ass
(_o_)

ass that's been around
(_O_)

kiss my ass
(_x_)

leave my ass alone
(_X_)

tired ass
(_zzz_)

wise ass
(_o^o_)

unlucky ass
(_13_)

money out the ass
(_$_)

dumb ass
(_?_)

And remember.......
Laissez les bon temps rouler!
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Guess What?

Guess who is certifiable now?
Me that's who!
I've joined the ranks of many, I'm taking 10mg's of Fluoxetine, Thats prozac people.
Well hopefully I'll regain some of my sanity back, well I guess there is no choice in the matter, it's sink or swim!

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On Sunday's Happenings

My daughter brought my little Derrick (A.K.A. Jimmy) down yesterday, the boy is quit the pisser, no really, this boy pisses every half hour.
We went to Haystacks, I had chicken fried steak, mash potatoes/w country gravy and coleslaw, my daughter had some type of chicken club with bbq sauce and fries .
The meal was excellent and a great time out with my daughter and my lil Derrick.
Hopefully we can do this more often if time and money allows us.
Went to the docs today (they were closed Saturday) she prescribed antidepressants so I can cope a little better , then a trip to the hospital for some tests before the end of next month.
Also went to my Aunt Marion & Uncle Ray's house for tea and a bullshit session which was very comforting to me.
Hopefully when these pills kick in I'll be in a little better state of mind.
Well folks that's it for now.

And as always, thanks for listening!

Sunday Happenings

My darling daughter is taking me to Haystacks Today for a Sunday meal with my Grandson.
Hopefully spending more time with them will ease some mental pain today!

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Saturday #3's

On your journal or mine write 3 words that describes whats going on or how you feel.
my 3 words are......
Ordering medicines today.

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Thank You's And Other Things

My sincerest graditude and Many thank you's go out to Linda In Wa. and Joann in Ca. for their lovely sympathy cards that warmed my heart. Thank you so much Ladies!
I've been worried about the hospital bills for nothing, the mother in law called and said that they are getting taken care of that all I got to do is find is my Debbie's birth certificate, social security card and picture ID,
Thanks Ma!
And many thanks to all of you out there for your prayers for Debbie & I and warm wishes, God Bless All Of You Dear Friends!
And as always,thanks for listening!

My Never By Blue October

Lyrics | Blue October lyrics

When It Rains It Pours

Last month my computer went down, well more then down, the motherboard is fried and I still owe $300.00 on it.
I owe about $1300.00 for my doctor bills plus $8000.00 for Debbie's burial, now her doctor bills are coming in plus her hospital bill, so far for her around $23,000.00, if my math adds up right that comes to $32,600.00.
Now where in the hell am I suppose to get this dough?
I barely have enough to bury her.
I'm barley hanging in there with just the regular bills!
What's next?
Bring it on !

And as always , thanks for listening!

MRE'S Are They Good?

Are MRE'S good?
Back in the 80's they were made by the Ralston Purina Co.
And everything the government bids out it is made by the lowest bidder!
They have a shelf life of ten years if they don't freeze!

The first Mre's I had were Dehydrated bland cardboard tasting pucks you had to add water to, they were alright if you were hungry and one step on the food chain above bugs!
But over the years they got better and put together by different plants in the USA.
Hell I remember eating stir fry before I got out!
Mre's Are high in calories for the fighting man to burn, but can make you constipated due to lack of fiber content.
If I remember right, I think they have veggie mres for the guys that don't eat meat and also kosher for those that need it.
Later on in the years they add a heater you just added water to, it heated up your food nicely on a cold day.
The soul purpose for a mre is for the soldier on the move, he can carry his food with him, his fast food, Meals Ready to Eat AkA. MRE'S.

And as always,thanks for listening!

What's For Dinner?

Man can not live on Frozen food Alone!

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Emptiness And Pain

I can think of younger days when living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do.
I could never see tomorrow, but I was never told about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow, noone said a word about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

Debbie when you left me you unknowingly took my heart with you and rightly so because it belonged to you.
I can never love another and there is no mending this broken heart of mine.
My heart will always be broken until I'm in your loving arms again my darling.
Debbie I love you so much doll , you were my everything, my heart and soul.
Love always
John

She Did It All

Well folks I'm not adjusting to well ,my Debbie did a lot around here.
It takes me all freakin' day what she did in a few hours.
Getting animal smells out of the house is a main issue for me due to copd , Debbie made sure that It was gone if one of the animals had an accident or came in wet.
Cleaning chemicals kill me, I don't know what to use for what, when I was out doing errands on her day off she'd clean and air out the fumes.
Cooking is another issue, I know how to cook but can't cook for one , it seems like a waste of food because I won't eat the same stuff 5 days in a row and I'm not ready to cook a weeks worth of meals in one day.
Putting socks on is a chore, can't lift my right leg to do it.
Making the bed is a freakin' all day chore for me.
Simple stuff is work for me, cutting my lawn forget about it!
Sweeping is ok but using a dust pan just don't happen.
She took care of it all here , I guess I'll have to sit and think awhile to see if I can make things easier for me.
I guess I have to deploy my military thinking to over come most of the chores but I don't think A hose and a leaf blower are the right tools for now.

And as always, thanks for listening!

It's Been One Week

My Debbie has been gone for a week now , she comes to me in my dreams.
I awake happy then reality sets in, I'm lonely,Sassy is lonely but we manage to get thru the days.
On the tats, I want to get both but the rose and rosary will be first.
Tomorrow ,if I can manage , I'm going to her grave for a good cry.
Tomorrow , I'm also getting my American Legion card so I can be around people it'll get me thru this, no drinking just to play pool and converse.
I loved her so much, more then life itself,she was my goddess!
Thank you so much for your support and warm comments friends it helps.

And as always, thanks for listening!

Tats For My Debbie

Bounce

A ball does it
A check can do it
It's In your step
You Can Do it on a trampoline
But how does one do it After a loved one dies?
How in the freakin' hell am I'm Suppose to bounce back after what just happened to me?
My love for Debbie was greater than I thought!
My heart can't bounce back from the pain, I freakin' hurt bad, real bad inside!
Her death has eaten me up inside, like a cancer!
There is no bouncing back from this!
The fucking reaper won, I'm fucking dead inside!
It was my last dance with death , it has taken my Debbie away from me , death could not take me, so it took my Debbie instead!
Now I'm begging Death to take me home to my Debbie tonight.
I'm done bouncing!

And as always, thanks for listening!

The Veiwing

My Debbie was laid to rest in a very beautiful silver casket,her casket spray was done in sunflowers which she loved.
The funeral home put together a beautiful slide show of her life on a big screen tv.
My Brandon and I Put together a great music selection, we played You are so beautiful to me , Put a candle in the window, butterfly kisses, candle in the wind and a few others that I don't remember.
I can't believe she is gone, God I want her back!
I loved her so much, my life is shit now!
I have bad thoughts running through my mind.
After the burial I had a bad break down when I went home,yes people, I went to the bar until midnight last night that ruined my 4 months of being sober but I will return to being sober because I made that commitment with my Debbie.
My friends it is very hard living without her,she was my everything, without my love I have no will to live any longer in this house.
I will try to keep up with my journal from time to time.
Thank you all for your lovely comments and prayers my friends, they were greatly appreciated and comforting to me.

And as always, thanks for listening!

Debbie

since friday my debbie put up the fight of her life.
she passed away12:45 pm today.

My Debbie

I rushed my Debbie to the hospital friday night , by saturday morning they put her in ccu at 9:30 am , sometime in the mid after noon to early evening she was put on a vent, 9:30 pm she coded , she will not be come home with me ,we don't expect her to make it through the day.
thank you all for being our friends she loved all of you.
I'll write later when things calm down for me.

Sex

At our age food has replaced sex!
Just yesterday Debbie had asked what all the racket was in the kitchen?
I told her not to worry I was just installing a mirror over the kitchen Table!

And remember........
Laissez les bon temps rouler!
And as always,thanks for listening!

Alcohol: Getting Ugly People Layed For Over 3000 Years

Drinking till 2Am was the norm for me back in the early 80's, I loved my drink but more importantly I loved the ladies.
I would hit on the young sexy gals during my early excursions out but would get to drunk and start spraying them with spit every time I would speak at them, in general they would eventually leave my side at the bar and go some where else.
I remember one time this happened, around 1:30ish , there was this Red Head Chic winking at me on the other side of the bar, I winked back at her , grab my drink and staggered on over to her, missed the bar stool cracked my head on the concrete floor and when I came to I was in a cab with her,2 six packs in tow and en route to her place.
Yahoo,I'm getting lucky tonight!
We drank, Danced and drank some more.
We made wild passionate love until 4Am then fell asleep.
I awoke about 10:30 am still a little drunk ,jumped in the shower , got dressed and was almost out the door when I turned around to say goodbye to the red headed goddess that showed me a good time.
When I turned around I was horrified by the looks of this chic, this chic was ugly with a CAPITAL U!
Well I did not want to hurt her feelings by running out the door so I reached down to pet her Reddish Pomeranian, that's when I realized it was the hair on her legs!

And Remember....
Laissez les bon temps rouler!
And as always, thanks for listening!

Can You Feel The Love?

Yesterday whilst cooking fried chicken , I got grease stains on my favorite shirt and I needed to get the stains out.
I wanted to ask Debbie how to get the stains out, The conversation went like this.

" Debbie, Can I ask you a stupid Question?"
Her Freakin' Reply was " Better than anyone I know!"
Can you feel the freakin' love Here?

And remember.....
Laissez les bon temps rouler!
And as always, thanks for listening!

It's My B-Day & I'll Be Morbid If I Want To

When born you don't remember your Birth And you sure as hell ain't going to remember your death, that's a given.
As I sat here today reflecting back on 47 years, there was no cake nor a party, nope I'm wrong , one for my 33rd B-Day that was a good day for awhile anyway.
I'm not one for making it a big deal out of my B-Day but I did celebrate in a morbid but interestingly fun way today.
I was looking at grave stones today and have a few that I got to decide on and I sat for awhile deciding what type of songs to be played at the funeral service.

Here are a few that I picked, let me know what you think?

Wish You Where Here By Pink Floyd

Always With You, Always With Me By Joe Satriani (All Guitar)

Time Of Your Life By Green Day

And Last but not least

I Did It My Way By Sinatra

That'll Kill a Half an hour at least during the service!

Now to decide on what not to wear, you know what they say your first impression is a lasting one!

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The Sand Man Is A Thief

Cancun Beach Closed Due to 'Stolen Sand'
Hundreds of feet of a Cancun beach is closed after Mexico police accused hotel owners of stealing the sand.
Police, backed by gun-toting Navy personnel, used crime-scene tape to keep surprised tourists off the coastline in front of the Gran Caribe Real Hotel, according to the Associated Press. Five people were detained for allegedly pumping sand from the sea floor and onto the beach in front of the hotel, the story said, and police are also investigating the hotel's use of breakwaters to keep sand from naturally flowing onto other hotel beaches.
"Today we made the decision to close this stretch of ill-gotten, illegally accumulated sand," Patricio Patron, Mexico's attorney general for environmental protection, told AP. "This hotel was telling its tourists: 'Come here, I have sand ... the other hotels don't, because I stole it.'"

I guess freakin' Cancun sand is like gold in Mexico, I'll bet I'll see this on the stock exchange!


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Lifes Wisdoms

All the world is a stage and most of us are unrehearsed.

And remember....
Laissez les bon temps rouler!
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Saturday #3's

On your journal or mine write 3 words that describes what's going on or how you feel.
My 3 words are....
Found Money Jar

And as always, thanks for listening!