The Veiwing

My Debbie was laid to rest in a very beautiful silver casket,her casket spray was done in sunflowers which she loved.
The funeral home put together a beautiful slide show of her life on a big screen tv.
My Brandon and I Put together a great music selection, we played You are so beautiful to me , Put a candle in the window, butterfly kisses, candle in the wind and a few others that I don't remember.
I can't believe she is gone, God I want her back!
I loved her so much, my life is shit now!
I have bad thoughts running through my mind.
After the burial I had a bad break down when I went home,yes people, I went to the bar until midnight last night that ruined my 4 months of being sober but I will return to being sober because I made that commitment with my Debbie.
My friends it is very hard living without her,she was my everything, without my love I have no will to live any longer in this house.
I will try to keep up with my journal from time to time.
Thank you all for your lovely comments and prayers my friends, they were greatly appreciated and comforting to me.

And as always, thanks for listening!