Mental Meltdown

For the first time in my life I'm all alone.

I don't know what the future holds for me, it kind of looks bleak right now.

The depression seems to be getting deeper, its roots dug deep in to my soul.

I met a nice lady at one of the stores I go to (about 2 weeks ago) we are slowly becoming friends, I was going to ask her yesterday if she wanted to join me for dinner, until I realize her name was Debbie, I almost had a freakin' melt down right there in the store.

I came home in a disturbed depressed state, What the hell was I thinking ? It is way to early to be asking anyone to join me for dinner.

My heart still hurts, my mind aches for my Debbie,how could I do that to her?It feels like I'd be cheating on her!

I've been in a bad way , need sleep.

I think I'm going to need therapy and stronger pills.

Going to medicate so I can sleep, Good night!

And as always, thanks for listening!