I was talking to My cousin yesterday,we were reminiscing of days of yore, Kids we hung with, Kids we partied with, yep our fun days.
I asked my cousin about my first true love, Renee` Thomas, He told me that she died a few years ago from a brain aneurysm,that hit me like a ton of bricks, the depression has settled in now and I can't get her out of my head!
I loved this chick and I guess the love for her never died.
I met her when I was 17 she was 15 we hit it off well and started dating.
Distance kept us apart on the week days but come the weekend if I could not hussle a ride ,I would walk the 11 miles to go see her and slept at my Aunts a few miles down the road.
God I loved her, her beautiful blond hair, her smell , her beautiful blue eyes, I can still see her in my mind as if it were yesterday.
God I miss her.
When I got home from basic training and AIT we were supposed to plan our wedding but when I got home it seemed that my life changed so much, I lost friends due to their silliness including her, it seemed that I did a whole lot of growing up and nobody kept up with me.
We broke up, on again off again relationship did not work out.
We always said we have each other in our hearts when we broke up.
I can't believe she is gone!
I'm not writting this behind my Debbies back, she knows what's going on, I tell her everything and I love my Debbie very much and would not hurt her in anyway.
I just did not realize how much love I had for her in my heart.
And as always, thanks for listening!