Saturday, May 2, 2009

WTF WAS I THINKING????????????

Johnny G is in a bad freakin' way right now!
My freakin' skin is on fire and the snakes come out to play with me at night!
I died 3 times and brought back to life'97 thru '99 , that was easy compared to what the hell I'm going through now!
I promised myself that I'd regain some sort of reality once my daughter gave birth and I'm sticking to my guns but man the freakin' mental and physical pain I am going through without going to the doctor is overwhelming!
My Debbie is right by my side to help me fight the biggest fight I have ever had to fight in my life , I'm fighting the beast within!
Alcoholism is the beast and withdrawal suxs!

And as always, thanks for listening!




17 comments:

Indigo said...

What are you thinking? You want to be here for your grandbaby, you want to be around to see here grow up. I know this isn't easy hon. It's hell in itself, If I can do it with all the night terrors I had to live through...I know you can. You've been through a freaking war hon. Look at it as a war, you against the Alcohol and your going to win.

I'm an email away if you need to talk. I'm not checking my AOL much these days. I can be found here:
ravensquietscreams@gmail.com

Your in my thoughts dear friend! (Hugs)Indigo

Paula said...

I've never had the problem so I can't say I know what you are going through but I want you to know I'm with you in thought, prayer, and spirit. I care what happens to you. I hope you can hang in there and succeed friend.

Marty said...

Hi Johnny,
I'm sure you're going through a terrible hell but hang in there ... with all you've been through there's no question you'll get through this, too. I'm sending good thoughts your way.
Best,
Marty

Linda's World said...

Ahhh Johnny, I'm sorry you're going thru a tough time but hang in there. I'm not a drinker, never have been so I can't possibly understand what it's like to go thru the withdrawals. Try some bio feed back or meditation. Have Debbie play some soft jazz or easy listening music. Try to relax. I'm sure it will pass. We're all here for you...take care my friend. Linda in Washington

Tabby said...

Hi Johnny,

I can just imagine you pain I had to watch someone almost die due to alcoholism and after 30 days in the hospital they saved him....Withdrawal is a bitch but you can do it. You may want to check with the doctor though just to be sure you are alright. I am rooting for you! Like they say one day at a time.

salemslot9 said...

pray
alot

SHOOBIE HUNTER said...

you were thinking clearly...you know you need to stop...I can only imange what you are going though...sorry it is soooo damn painful....sucks big time...hang in there....hugs

Sue said...

You can do this. You can do this. I would ask why not see if a dr can help? And again, YOU CAN DO THIS. Hang in there. I miss your music.
Sue

Terri said...

Keeping you in my prayers...

Hugs
Terri

Sugar said...

you can do it my friend, you can. but, as you already know...it's gonna be tough. you can get something from dr to help, if need be.
pray, & think of that new gbaby!!!
i'll be praying too, have your name in my prayer box.
if i can help, just send me an email...i care!
huggies & love...

Hollie said...

Don't give up!!! It will be worth it in the end. I know right now is really rough but hang on....

Kattytrick said...

Hay Johnny G. God love ya boy-o-boy! Yup this is a hard one, but you've got the cahonies compodray!!! I have faith in you, and I'm proud of you and your every effort! I read the comments that everyone else left, and they have all said it so elegantly that I can't help but say ditto.

I don't talk about it to much, but I at one time in my life, got stupid behind a Meth addiction!... That I started doing so I could drink more!!!...I am clean and sober now for 12 years...Jonny G...It's sooooooo worth it! It's so worth it!...E-mail me sometime if you want to talk or just vent. I'm here for you, such as I can be via the internet.

And Debbie, God bless you too. Hang in there Kiddo! It won't always be like this, and it only gets better from here, okay?

Adirondackcountrygal said...

My brother was an alcoholic and it took him many tries to get sober, but he did it and so can you. Just keep trying.

madcobug said...

Sending prayers your way. Hang in there. Some family members of mine have went through it and now everything is ok. Helen

Jimmy's Journal said...

Hang in there pal...I've had my bouts with the bottle. It gets easier as you get used to either quiting or at least moderation.

Jimmy

Melanie said...

HANG IN THERE SWEETIE...You can do it..will be tough but I think YOU are tougher..My prayers are with you

Melanie

Robyn said...

Hi John I am coming by way of Call for Support! I have lived with alcoholics my whole life and will tell you that you can do this! The war your fighting can be beat! I will send happy thoughts and prayers your way that you are able to beat this demon! Hang in there and know many people are rooting for you!

It is a pleasure to meet you!
Robyn