My Never By Blue October

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When It Rains It Pours

Last month my computer went down, well more then down, the motherboard is fried and I still owe $300.00 on it.
I owe about $1300.00 for my doctor bills plus $8000.00 for Debbie's burial, now her doctor bills are coming in plus her hospital bill, so far for her around $23,000.00, if my math adds up right that comes to $32,600.00.
Now where in the hell am I suppose to get this dough?
I barely have enough to bury her.
I'm barley hanging in there with just the regular bills!
What's next?
Bring it on !

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MRE'S Are They Good?

Are MRE'S good?
Back in the 80's they were made by the Ralston Purina Co.
And everything the government bids out it is made by the lowest bidder!
They have a shelf life of ten years if they don't freeze!

The first Mre's I had were Dehydrated bland cardboard tasting pucks you had to add water to, they were alright if you were hungry and one step on the food chain above bugs!
But over the years they got better and put together by different plants in the USA.
Hell I remember eating stir fry before I got out!
Mre's Are high in calories for the fighting man to burn, but can make you constipated due to lack of fiber content.
If I remember right, I think they have veggie mres for the guys that don't eat meat and also kosher for those that need it.
Later on in the years they add a heater you just added water to, it heated up your food nicely on a cold day.
The soul purpose for a mre is for the soldier on the move, he can carry his food with him, his fast food, Meals Ready to Eat AkA. MRE'S.

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What's For Dinner?

Man can not live on Frozen food Alone!

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Emptiness And Pain

I can think of younger days when living for my life
Was everything a man could want to do.
I could never see tomorrow, but I was never told about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

I can still feel the breeze that rustles through the trees
And misty memories of days gone by
We could never see tomorrow, noone said a word about the sorrow.

And how can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?
What makes the world go round?
How can you mend this broken man?
How can a loser ever win?
Please help me mend my broken heart and let me live again.

Debbie when you left me you unknowingly took my heart with you and rightly so because it belonged to you.
I can never love another and there is no mending this broken heart of mine.
My heart will always be broken until I'm in your loving arms again my darling.
Debbie I love you so much doll , you were my everything, my heart and soul.
Love always
John

She Did It All

Well folks I'm not adjusting to well ,my Debbie did a lot around here.
It takes me all freakin' day what she did in a few hours.
Getting animal smells out of the house is a main issue for me due to copd , Debbie made sure that It was gone if one of the animals had an accident or came in wet.
Cleaning chemicals kill me, I don't know what to use for what, when I was out doing errands on her day off she'd clean and air out the fumes.
Cooking is another issue, I know how to cook but can't cook for one , it seems like a waste of food because I won't eat the same stuff 5 days in a row and I'm not ready to cook a weeks worth of meals in one day.
Putting socks on is a chore, can't lift my right leg to do it.
Making the bed is a freakin' all day chore for me.
Simple stuff is work for me, cutting my lawn forget about it!
Sweeping is ok but using a dust pan just don't happen.
She took care of it all here , I guess I'll have to sit and think awhile to see if I can make things easier for me.
I guess I have to deploy my military thinking to over come most of the chores but I don't think A hose and a leaf blower are the right tools for now.

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It's Been One Week

My Debbie has been gone for a week now , she comes to me in my dreams.
I awake happy then reality sets in, I'm lonely,Sassy is lonely but we manage to get thru the days.
On the tats, I want to get both but the rose and rosary will be first.
Tomorrow ,if I can manage , I'm going to her grave for a good cry.
Tomorrow , I'm also getting my American Legion card so I can be around people it'll get me thru this, no drinking just to play pool and converse.
I loved her so much, more then life itself,she was my goddess!
Thank you so much for your support and warm comments friends it helps.

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